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Sawal : Umar 20 saal hai. Bi ae ki
Taliba hon. Taqreeban paanch saal se is azaab mein mubtala hon ke jab mein koi
naik khayaal dil mein latayen hon to foran ghair ikhtiyaari tor par bura
khayaal dil mein aa jata hai. Mein Allah aur is ke rasool s.a.w par Sadaq dil se imaan rakhti hon lekin jab
bhi Allah ya is ke rasool s.a.w ka
khayaal dil mein warid hota hai navz billah yeh khayaal neki se badi ki taraf
chala jata hai. Allah taala se har waqt tauba astaghfar karti rehti hon. Aksar raat
mein aankhh khil jati hai to ro ro kar is ke agay haath judte hon ke mujhe is
azaab se chhutkara day. Be adbi ke khauf se woh alfaaz tehreer nahi kar sakti. Sochti
hon khud kashi kar lon lekin aison ke liye to duniya bhi azaab aur akhirat bhi
jahannum. Kisi ko numaz parhtey dekhatii hon to be ikhtiyar ansoo behnay lagtay
hain ke kaisi badnaseeb hon ke mujhe yeh bhi muyassar nahi. Jahan zikar Ellahi
ya zikar rasool s.a.w hota hai, aisi
aisi fehash aur ghatiya baatein aur khayalat zehan mein ubhartay hain ke mein
khud ko nanga aur uryaan mehsoos karti hon. Apne aap ko nochti hon, martii hon
aur roti hon lekin is azaab se chhutkara nahi milta. Samajh mein nahi aata ke
kahan nikal jaoon jo mujhe is aziat se nijaat miley.
Jab mein choti thi to aksar napasandeedah kahaniyan aur risalay
hamaray ghar mein atay they kyunkay mere mamu nnat nai kahaaniyon ke bohat
shoqeen they. Meri ammi ne mujhe aik dafaa aisa digest parhte dekh kar mara tha
magar mein tajassus mein sab se choup choup kar padti thi. Goya nai nai baatein
millti theen jin se baaz dafaa to dimagh mein dhamakay se hotay they aur tamam
jism ki sansanhat jata tha jaisay qubool karne se inkaar kar raha ho. Mujhe is
tajassus ne kahin ka nahi chorra. Kash mein apni ammi ki baat maan layte. Ab to
azaab meri zindagi ka aik hissa ban gaya hai. Har qisam ki mazhabi mehafilon
mein jana tark kar diya hai. Jab talawat hoti hai to uth aati hon ke bhethon gi
to gustaakhi ho gi.
Do saal se apne walidain ke sath middle east mein muqeem hon. Log kehte
hain ke barri khush qismat ho ke aasani se maqamat Muqaddisa ki ziyarat kar
sakti ho. Sunthee hon to ro padtee hon ke aap daur hotay hue bhi kitney qareeb
hain aur mein badnaseeb qareeb hotay bhi kitni daur hon. Aaj kal Pakistan aayi
hui hon.
Jawab : makhrab ikhlaq novel, afsaanay aur digest
parh kar aadmi ke jazbaat mein aik aisa hejaan peda ho jata hai ke is se
muashray mein raaij qadren toot jati hain. Aur jab yeh qadren toot jati hain to
aadmi ultay seedhay khayalat mein ulajh jata hai aur bil akhir un napasandeedah
aur ulje khayalat se aqeedah bhi kharab honay lagta hai to ensaan ke dimagh mein
aisay was wasay anay lagtay hain jin mein kkhuda, rasool s.a.w aur mazhab se be zaari payi jati hai aur yeh
bezari ghair ikhtiyaari hoti hai. Aqeedah ki kharabi aur zameer ki malamat se
nazar nah anay wala aik mutaffan phora is ke batin mein peda ho jata hai. Is ki
wajah se woh itna be chain rehta hai ke is ki misaal barri se barri bemari mein
bhi nahi millti. Allah taala hum sab ko apne hifz o Amaan mein rakhay. Is takleef
da kefiyat se nijaat panay ke liye kore ya dhullay hue khdr ya lthe ka aik
kurta silwaya jaye. Yeh kurta saaray jism par aik aik balisht zayed ho aur
takhnon taq neecha ho.
Aasteen bhi aik aik balisht khuli hui ho. Kisi aisay kamray mein
jis mein andhera ho ( andhera nah ho to andhera kar liya jaye ) yeh karta pehan
kar pandrah minute taq tehaliye aur teheltay waqt
الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ
الْعَالَمِينَ (2) الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيمِ (3) مَالِكِ يَوْمِ
الدِّينِ
Parhtee rhye. Pandrah minute baad karta utaar kar teh kar ke isi
kamray mein kisi mehfooz jagah par rakh dijiye. Jab taq aqaed durust hon is
waqt taq amal karti rahen. Amal ke waqt kamrah mein andhera hona zurori hai.
